confusekid

I'm Still Here

2010-05-16T20:48:00.001+08:00

I'm Still Here (Jim's Theme)

Written and Performed by John Rzeznik

I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment, that's held in your arms
And what, do ya think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be
And what, do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me, and throw me away
And how, can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah you stand here on your own
They don't know me, cause I'm not here
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on, and feel I belong
And how, can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me, cause I'm not here
And you, see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I, wanna tell you who I am
Can you help you be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on, and feel I belong
And how, can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me, but I'm still here
They can't tell me who to be
Cuz I'm not what they see
Yeah the world is still sleeping
While I keep on dreaming, for me
And it wasn't just whispers and lies
That I'll never believe
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on, and feel I belong
And how, can they say I'll never change?
They're the ones that stay the same
I'm the one now, cause I'm still here
I'm the one, cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

From the old... To the new...

2010-05-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

This was from my old post at http://dwarfiq.xanga.com

I just realized i haven't changed that much when i was 18? Its been 8 years but some words in the paragraph below still makes sense to me... What do you make of it? =|

"""Anyway, i met a new person yesterday too. All i can say is, the world is not that good. The world is very cruel. It seems to me that there are not may nice people around. You may think that a person is really cool. And nice and everything... But it may not be. They may be just out hurting others. People does not realise that not everyone is like them. Their actions may be special to some people. They are out only for their own gain. Selfish is the word...? But then again, the person might not be like that. Actually trust is the word. I've been hurt so many times before. And giving out my trust to people is difficult now. Even as friends. It makes me so confuse and everything. Makes me just wanna sleep forever.

Haiz... It's very confusing rite? People always tell me not to think so much. But i can't. I'm a very deep person. I like to talk abt stuffs which has a deep meaning and not just a shallow meaning. Like hello, then bye bye. I like the twist and turn in a conversation. The hype. The emotions that are involved. I believe all things in life are like that. But sadly there not much people around. Or people are reluctant to think deep. Maybe thinking deep is not that good either huh? So, what do u think guys. Should i turn into someone who should think shallow. And change into someone who would go out for my own needs. Or should i stay as someone who will think deep? It's all very confusing...

Anyway, i feel much better now after writting in... I get to express myself. I tried calling a few people yesterday nite to talk abt it, but both of them say they will call me back. And they didn't... Haiz... See what i mean? Ok la...

I need to prepare for work now. See ya..."""

1st Post - Sunday Alone! Saturday on Fire! =)

2010-05-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

Hrm. My 1st attempt to write a blog after 10 years? Haha.

You know. Today is the 1st day that I have not gone out on a sunday and at home instead. Feels kinda weird. The funny thing is you're suppose to feel more comfortable at home. Or maybe I am so used to going out on a sunday it feels funny to be at home instead. Something out of the ordinary? But I guess staying at home on a Sunday is something I have to get used from now onwards...

I am looking forward to go Universal Studios Singapore soon!!! Oh and also to eat at... Okay. I have a few choices

The Line
Carousel
Chong Pang Steamboat @ Turf City
Crabs at River Valley (Beside Spize)

Which one should I go for?! I love seafood especially crabs! So, number 4 would be a natural choice. But number 1 to 3 is buffet! Can eat all you want. =( Man, I am so confused. But all 4 has crabs actually. I have tried number 2 and 3. But not 1 and 4. Argh. I shall choose when the day comes then. haha.

Yesterday I had an interesting day. I was practically surrounded by fire! It started with a performance about fire... (I think O.o) After which my friend and myself walked from esplanade towards city hall. And this park was totally lit up by fire all around! It was damn interesting! Really loved it. It was as though the whole park is on fire if you look from the distance. Oh, and we received a free coke. Which my friend told me but I did not believe. Who gives free coke?!?! haha.

Anyways, I am dreading to head to work tomorrow... no taking of leave until July!!!! Sucks lah. =(